Room 217, Thursday Night

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Savannah had managed to make it through the work day and through meeting a new arrival to the island. She made it through walking Destiny on the beach and through an hour or so of sketching in the room. She had made it through pretending to eat something and through doing some cleaning and writing Paige and the Pack.

In short, she had made it through her day.

She made it through her day without breaking down or having reactions to everything that had happened within the last week -- including two painful goodbyes. She wasn't sure what set her off, and she wouldn't be able to explain it if anyone asked, but the next thing she knew, she was curled up on the floor with her face in her knees. The sobs started out as gasps and then the tears started.

Someone was being forced to actually deal with her pain.


[[For the boyfriend/husband. SP is our friend.]]

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Johnny walked in having no idea he was going to find Savannah on the floor, crying.

"Babe?" he said, crouching in front of her. "What happened?" He was kind of clueless when it came to crying girls.

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Savannah tried to say something, but no words came out and she ended up just turning and grabbing a hold of Johnny. She held on tightly to him as Destiny whimpered worriedly.

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Sitting back, he folded his arms around her, holding her close.

"Come on, sweetheart, tell me what's going on here so I can fix it."

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She felt stupid for breaking down like this right now, but she hadn't been able to stop. When she was able to breathe more she tightened her arms around him. It could be said that she was clinging a little bit.

"I thought... I thought I could get through this without... but saying goodbye to them was just too hard... and Benicio upsetting you... and I should be stronger than this, damn it... and I'm sorry because you don't need this and..."

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He didn't mind her clinging, he just continued to hold her close, worried.

Ohhhh, okay. He got it now and man, if she was this upset over her friends, what was she going to be like when he left? "Baby, shhh, it's okay. You have every right to feel this way." He ran his hand up and down her back.

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This was why it was a very bad idea for Savannah to repress her emotions for long periods of time. And she would do her best not to break down on him when he left so he didn't see how bad she took it.

"Chris and Summer..." She was starting to be able to breathe a little bit again, but she was still holding tightly to him. "And Benecio causing doubts and it bothers me that he upset you and I can't fix it... and I can't even tell mom..."

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"No, sweetheart. Benecio tried, I'll give him that much. But I'm good, trust me. We're good," he said, keeping his voice quiet. "As far as Chris and Summer... hon, you can't help but be upset over their leaving."

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"I do trust you," she said, nodding against his neck. "I always trust you." And she really did. "It's one thing to mess with me, but to mess with you... I don't know how to handle that, Johnny. I'm trying but..." She took a breath. "I'm going to get a new plan on my cell phone because Summer said to expect a lot of text messages and I want to make sure I get any messages from you guys..."

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He brushed her hair back from her face, shifting a little so that he could tilt her chin up. He wanted to look at her. "You worry too much. Has anyone ever told you that?" There was a small smile playing around the corner of his mouth. "You'll probably get so many text messages you won't know what to do with them all."

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"You're mine," she said, as if that explained everything. "So of course I worry when people try messing with you." That and she was still stung that her adopted grandfather thought that someone could put a monetary price on what she was worth. "I can hope, right? Maybe I should get a Blackberry..."

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He grinned. "I'm yours." And one day he just might kill Benicio for putting a price on her worth. He worked hard at keeping his anger over that hidden from her. "Let me buy it for you," he said and kissed her forehead.

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She was starting to relax again, though there were still tears in her eyes. He just had a calming effect on her like that. She shifted a little so she could still be against him, but watch his eyes, too. She liked his eyes. "Would it make you happy if I let you buy it for me?"

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"Yes," he said, looking into her eyes. "I enjoy buying things for you and this in particular would make me very happy."

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She nodded, giving him a soft smile. "If it'll make you happy, then go for it and I won't argue." Besides, considering what she got him as a graduation present, she really couldn't say anything about him spending money on her.

She let out a breath. "Sorry I went to pieces on you."

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He kissed her mouth softly. "Thank you," he said. And if she spent a crap load of money on him, he was going to kick her ass.

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He'd have to catch her first.

She kissed him back, running a hand along his face. "You're welcome."

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He just might love the challenge.

"Feeling better?"

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Savannah nodded. "I am. Thank you for being here, love. I hadn't planned to fall apart." She sighed softly. "I was doing so well."

No, she really wasn't.

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He wasn't sure if he believed her or not, but Johnny was at a loss as to how to help her. He just held her, keeping her close. "You know it's all going to be alright, don't you? Every day that passes, it'll get a little bit easier."

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She nodded. "I know, love. You would think that I would be better at saying goodbye and losing people. But... I guess I'm not very good at it yet."

Him keeping her close was helping her a lot more than he probably realized.

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"I don't think anyone ever really is," he said, thinking it was more true for girls. Not that he would say that out loud.

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Probably a good idea not to say that.

"Have I mentioned the part where I'm not thrilled about the cabins this summer?"

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Yeah. He could be smart like that.

"Yeah, can't say that I'm all too pleased either."

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She didn't like that she was going to have to get used to not sleeping with him so soon.

"I forsee a lot of sneaking out in my future."

The beach was nice...

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He smirked at her. "As long as that sneaking includes me."